A year ago today I moved out of my marital house and into my new home and my new life in Cardiff. I was absolutely terrified about what my new life would have in store for me and whether I was making the right decision or not.
My future self has never been so grateful in all my life. I love myself for being brave enough to make the decision to actually leave my old life. I started a new one with a whole load of fear, terror and excitement in my heart.
Soul Mate
My best friend in the whole wide world helped me through it. She held my hand, she let me cry and she made me giggle when I was really down. I phoned her in tears of fear on moving day and she told me I was strong enough to start my new life. She helped me move into my lovely new home and took charge. Unpacking my air bed so I had somewhere to sleep on my first night was the first thing she did. She bought me a plant even though she knows that I kill all living things but its still alive a year later. I see that as a sign!
She was my strength when I didn’t think I had any and she means more to me than I could ever put in writing.
I have amazing friends around me who were there for me when I was low or lonely. They took me out for food, they text me to check I was ok and called me just for a chat when they sensed I wasn’t doing very well. My friends live all over the UK but they were so supportive. It made the first year of my single life so much easier. I feel so lucky to have them in my life and am grateful every single day.
Celebrations
Tonight I am going out with some of my amazing friends to celebrate my year of freedom. We’ll also celebrate my 38th birthday which is in a couple of days time. I plan to drink lots, dance lots and laugh constantly. My new life is all about fun and laughter as they are so damn important to me. I was unhappy for so long that I’m making up for it now. I won’t allow myself to go back to the darkness I found in my last relationship.
My life is amazing and I absolutely love it. I am so damn glad I took the plunge and faced all my fear. I am so happy now and won’t let anyone or anything jeopardise that.
